Tears R Us

Isn't seasonal depression supposed to go away as it gets warmer? For some reason, these last few weeks has been really hard. Last night at newlyweds group, we were going in a circle so that everyone (just the girls) had a chance to tell what was ACTUALLY going on in their lives. What am I supposed to say to that? I've been doing horribly. I don't know why. It's just happening. Even being able to see my family over spring break wasn't really a break. My mother-in-law screamed nasty things at me, etc. For some reason, my menstrual cycles have become extraordinarily long (as in...the last time I just about could claim I had amenorrhea) and that obviously makes me nervous. I feel like I just can't get stuff done...and certainly not within the time frame I'd like. My grades are falling (I got a 13 out of 25 on my last test) and I don't really know what to do about it. I feel like I'm less than the person I used to be and obviously less than the person I'm meant to be. I quit my job after one full day because on a scale from 1-10, it was a 1. I really did hate it with practically my entire being. I feel like I just can't win. Why does this happen and what happened to the me that was not this person? "This too shall pass." On a lighter note, I'm reading Sacred Influence which is MUCH easier than Sacred Marriage (which I had a really hard time getting into/understanding).