I'm so tired

Got a third of my list crossed off. Threw up last week. Had to clean up someone else's puke. Vomit is disgusting and just plain sad. Worn out is pathetic, especially when it's the summer and I don't even have school. Whatever happened to my nice, long, relaxing summer vacation? At least I had Grasshoppers (Fudge Shoppe) today. I'm tired...and not just like "get eight hours of sleep and I'll feel better tired". Why does it seem like things keep getting harder and harder? Why does it seem nothing ever goes right? Why is it that once I finally get one thing finished, five things fill up it's place? Why do I feel so distant? From everyone? Is it me? Is it just this time in my life? Do I try and change it or just accept it? At least I had Tropical Punch Kool-Aid made with Splenda. Yost and I are trying to get off of soda (and it's doing well, but we now drink much more koolaid and we're also drinking more juice). Goodness. I drank FIVE bottles of water at work on Saturday. It was crazy. I had to pee three times. Made me laugh...and then sorta wanna cry. You see my point? What's that all about? What happened to my happy help everyone attitude? Now I still want to help everyone but am not as happy as before and rarely laugh and...it's stinky. I do love you all and thanks for reading my blabbing. I'm very lucky to have the friends I do. Very blessed indeed. Dios le bendiga.