Weird Feelings

So I've been really wound-up lately. Like, last night I kept going and going and going trying to wear myself out, but it never came, so I finally went to bed at 1:00. Today, I feel like the energy is seeping out of my every pore, but am not sure what to do with it and I feel like my emotions are in overdrive. I'm glad I have feelings, but after reading the most recent series, I've found myself very disappointed in my lifestyle. I'm more selfish than I should be and impolite to the people I care the most about. What's up with that? It's inspiration to be more "me" but what if I can never measure up to who I'm supposed to be? Or, rather, I know I'll never measure up to who I want to be, but where's a good compromise?