The start of something new?

I decided yesterday that my resume is as good as it will get (for the time being anyway). So, I started actually looking for a job (reluctantly). And guess what!!! I found a list of seven that I think are very interesting and two more that seem like quite decent possibilites (for now, at least). So, I've sent off two resumes thusfar and am in the process of working toward applying for some others. We'll see what happens?!?

More of "yes, indeed"

I was able to finally finish my Motley Fool (financial) book. It was very interesting. I'm pretty sure I learned some, which is nice. On those same lines, I'm now working with VITA (Volunteer Income Tax Assistance...a group through my school). I'm pretty excited about it. I'm hoping to learn quite a bit while being able to help out other couples (and individuals) like myself who don't have enough knowledge or time to do taxes themselves but don't (really) have enough money to hire someone. YEA! On another note, I'm on page 103 of my next book. We'll see how long it takes me to read. And, I'm finally in (what I think will be) the final phases of finishing up my resume and Christopher's going to bring home a newspaper for me tonight to start looking through for jobs. Long story about that, but...whatever. I LOVE YOU!

Yes indeed...

I finished The Five Love Languages yesterday and Captivating (with workbook) today.

My hands are frostbite (practically)

I had popcorn chicken today. It made me happy. I feel like the entire day flew by. I hate it when that happens. Granted, I had class from 11-4 today, but still. Plus, I finally sent (one of) the piece(s) of mail off today that I've been meaning to for...well, forever. My fingernails are still long. Is it my pessimistic attitude that keeps telling me to chop them off before they break? My english teacher doesn't seem like someone I'd easily get along with. He doesn't tell us stuff. It's very frustrating to someone like me. I'm going to a few meetings tomorrow. I'm excited if, for nothing else, to learn some new things. I'm going to the spring activities fair at the school and then later to a study abroad meeting and then to our young couples group at night. Very exciting. Then again, I have lots to do in between those things, but I'm still pretty excited. What to say? I've been working on my resume. It's taking a lot longer than I thought it would (but that's been happening a lot lately...and I getting slower?) My skin is getting pretty dry. It's not the best feeling thing ever, but I'll live. I have a list of three things on my birthday list thusfar. We'll see how that goes. I may end up just buying them for myself. Muahaha (that's my most evil laugh) My mom and I have been reading through Captivating together. I'm glad to be reading it again (and able this time to be able to think for a little while when I feel the need). It's a very intriguing book. Yost and I finally finished The Prayer of Jabez book (even though it's only 7 chapters long). We're still in the process of trying to catch up on the Read the Bible in a Year Bible (we're only a few days behind. It's just so hard when we seemingly rarely see eachother...and it's definitely not at the same time each day so it's hard to know when to read). I've set aside The Motley Fool book (I'm a few chapters away from finishing that one) for now so that I can read Taking Charge of Your Fertility. Very intriguing book. I'm learning a lot more about my own body than I'd ever thought I'd know...and I like it. I'm only on the 3rd chapter of that one (and it's, like, 500 pages long...so I'm hoping to finish it by mid-February). We'll see how that goes. I'm sick of doing hours of homework each day. It annoys me. I'm sick of things taking longer than they should. I'm sick of Merlin hating me. However, I was starting to think that he had an infection (he looked deadly), but he looks perfectly fine now. If only I could find a way to make him look like he's not always frowning... What else? I'm wondering where I've changed. I used to be pretty extroverted and quite crazy (dress, hair, accessories, actions, etc) but now I'm not. I don't know if I should feel I've lost a part of me or not, but...I don't. Sometimes I still feel the urge to do something very irrational or something out-of-place, but... I don't know. I find myself no longer thinking much about the future, but just trying to get through today (is that a good thing or not?) I still get great pleasure out of chapstick and stickers. I doubt that will ever change. God bless and Good Night.

My apartment is literally FREEZING

First of all, it made me feel special that my blog is read. Thank you. Second of all, I apologize to everyone who went to knitting tonight. I was planning on going...but then forgot...then worked out for a little over an hour...then was tired and took a really hot shower...then realized how late it was (and my hair was cold) and decided I needed some (more?) alone time to myself and so...I know you wanna know...I stayed home and painted my fingernails. I know. I know. You're all impressed. No need to worry. It's clear. Back in the day, Julie Lauren and I would paint our fingernails twice a week (fun different styles) but then we grew apart and I quit. Then I would paint my nails once a week (clear...so that when it starts chipping, you don't get weird looks, but it still makes them look shinier and less-chip-able). Then I would only paint them every once in forever. Then I painted my finger and toe nails (my little sister used to call them finger-toes instead of toenails) for Anastasia's wedding in August, but haven't since then. So, I painted my toenails pink a few days ago (for a date with my husband and he wanted pink) and my fingernails clear. Yea. Point being, I was able to do something for myself I haven't done in an extremely long time. And it made me feel good. Yeah. You hear that? It made me feel GOOD. I took 15 minutes of my time (I had to let it dry) and "wasted" my time and it lifted my spirits. Gosh. This is turning into a long blog. One of my new favorite songs is All My Praise by Selah. Gorgeous. Absolutely gorgeous. Okay. What else... I don't remember what I wrote last time. Okay. I just got a call from one of the friends I apologized to in this letter for missing knitting, but she told me it's not too late (I could still come for an hour before they disperse)...so I will go. And it will be lovely...but first I will blow-dry my hair. I love you all OH-SO-MUCH!!!

Okay...Fine!

I'll admit. I've been trying a new approach to relationships. Now, I know I tend to change with my surroundings (my pesonality) and therefore am sometimes very introverted and sometimes can't shut my mouth. Anyway, I feel like no one wants to know me anymore (like they don't take the time to try and actually SEE me). So... I've been trying a new approach. I'm not writing to any of my friends anymore and am no longer telling Christopher most things about me (yes, even he is not pursuing me). Well, I'm trying to refrain anyway. It hasn't been easy. Perhaps my lovelies just need some space before they realize that they can actually miss me (amazing, I know) or perhaps it's true that I've been struggling to keep a dying relationship alive (which I oftentimes do). I don't know what else to say. That's why I haven't been posting. I figure there's no point if no one ever reads it. But then I started thinking and...it's not for others. It's to let things out (but not all things b/c people can still read it). What else to say then... I've been having some weird physical problems lately. Went to the doctor today. Found out for sure on one thing, but that makes me even more nervous about what's going on (my doctor can't run any more tests until the middle of February b/c of their policies on this certain-type problem). Anyway, so I'm nervous that something seriously screwed up, but...I don't know. Sometimes I just want to cry and cry hard. It's not so much like me though. I hate the winter months and don't know how to feel better. I hate that. School's starting, so I'm hoping that will help (but it also means I have to walk around in the freaking freezing weather everyday...which I hate). Oh well. It hurts...