Weird

Life has become increasingly weird...I sorta like it. However, I've been having some weird feelings in my neck and have had massive shortness of breath at random times. WEIRD!!! I think I'm going to be able to have lunch with Dana today, which is always loads of fun. Very exciting for me!!! Gonna go call her at this point in time. All the love in the world, ~K

Subtract everything that comes out of my mouth from your memory

My sewing machine is not working at this point in time. That very much angers me because I wanted to finally finish (at least almost, anyway) my new (started 2 years ago) project. So, if anyone knows anything about sewing machines (or knows anyone who knows anything about them) please inform me of how I've killed it this time (usually when I kill it, I can come back a half-hour later and fix it, but not this time). As of now, I'm listening to the Evanescence cd that I'd lost the last time I broke our computer but then Christopher downloaded from his brother's cd. Very exciting for me. Plus, I just finished reading my first two fiction books in forever: The Christmas Shoes and The Christmas Blessing. They were both amaz-azing! Took me two days, though so now it's time to get back to business... I keep thinking that I need chapstick but then forget so I haven't had any for over 48 hours I think...Crazy...and my lips are yelling at me. I think tonight...I'll work on cutting the rest of the fabric for the quilt that will hopefully be finished in two weeks but the sewing will not finish tonight...

Tears R Us

Isn't seasonal depression supposed to go away as it gets warmer? For some reason, these last few weeks has been really hard. Last night at newlyweds group, we were going in a circle so that everyone (just the girls) had a chance to tell what was ACTUALLY going on in their lives. What am I supposed to say to that? I've been doing horribly. I don't know why. It's just happening. Even being able to see my family over spring break wasn't really a break. My mother-in-law screamed nasty things at me, etc. For some reason, my menstrual cycles have become extraordinarily long (as in...the last time I just about could claim I had amenorrhea) and that obviously makes me nervous. I feel like I just can't get stuff done...and certainly not within the time frame I'd like. My grades are falling (I got a 13 out of 25 on my last test) and I don't really know what to do about it. I feel like I'm less than the person I used to be and obviously less than the person I'm meant to be. I quit my job after one full day because on a scale from 1-10, it was a 1. I really did hate it with practically my entire being. I feel like I just can't win. Why does this happen and what happened to the me that was not this person? "This too shall pass." On a lighter note, I'm reading Sacred Influence which is MUCH easier than Sacred Marriage (which I had a really hard time getting into/understanding).

Spring Break...Is it really a break at all?

Let us think about this for a moment. Spring Break. Doesn't that imply that there should be some sort of a break in there? Never has spring break been break-ful for me, save the breaking of my heart. It's always either spending that time to work as much as possible (getting paid or on homework or on random stuff that has to be accomplished) or going to visit family (which is nice when it's my side of the family, but no matter what is stressful). What is there to say? This was the year of going to TX for Spring Break. Perhaps the last year that Chris' family and my family will live in the same place. It is perhaps the last time I'll have ever seen the house I spent years abiding in. I was able to spend a lot of time with my annoying dog and helping my Mom with some stuff, which was really nice. We went to Six Flags one day which ended up being a total waste of money and time, but at least the weather was nice and hot. Then again, you could look at it as: Christopher only ate one dinner with my family while I had to eat three of them with his family...I got the silent treatment twice...and, oh yeah, I was in a screaming/yelling match for the first time in my life. I can honestly never remember a time when I've ever actually yelled at someone. The good news: no swear words passed my lips during that time. Oh well... Ya gotta take the bad right along with the good, right? Asi es la vida

Lent

One more thing I figured was important: I've given up chocolate for Lent. Thusfar, I did NOT cookies from Subway even though I really wanted to AND I didn't accept free cookies today at my new job...Sad. Oh well, at least I'm sticking to it, right?

I'm STARVING

So...my computer at home is not working at this point in time and it just took me a half hour or so trying to find out my blogger address/password, etc. Oh well. Know what? I also found a blog I'd started before I was married. How weird is that. Hm... As of now, I work as a housekeeping assistant, campus ticketer...and I sell parts of my body for money. How much fun is that? Today's going to be my longest day this week (On the bus at 7:30 for work at 8 until class and then a 1 hour break from class for lunch and then after classes end for the day I have to do our taxes and then I get to do taxes for others and will end at about 8 tonight...when I'll have to walk home). Yea for long days??? And a midterm tomorrow... Good times. At least I'm not bored. Christopher and I are going to adopt Squirtle so that Merlin will have a friend when we move him to his new cage. That should be fun. Spring break is next week (thank goodness) and we're going to Tx on Monday (or Tuesday) and then leaving early from there to go to Omaha for a day before coming back to Fargo. Did I mention that this will probably be the last time we go to TX and both of our families will live there? Yep... My family's moving. Yea for the military? Well, I suppose I'm gonna go and eat my carrots before class starts. I love you all and hope things are going fabulously.